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coming home
Last Tuesday, Alisa and I visited WR. I hadn't been to Woodrose since graduation so I didn't really know how to feel or what to expect. I mean, my first visit as a freakin' alumna. I actually went there out of my own free will and there wasn't really anything I had to do there. We first got my transcripts and then we hung around in the faculty room. We talked to MsQ, MamaC and Ginang for a bit. Ginang actually had very funny things to say about my upcoming Spanish adventure. Hahaha. We even ended up going to mass after confession (our original purpose). When we finally left WR, after bugging the WSC, Alisa and I talked about how visiting was actually fun and it felt good. As cliche as it sounds, it was coming home.Today, or rather later, a good number of my friends will be going back to their college lives or starting it. I don't feel like I'm being left behind. Even if when I return from Spain I'll be with a different set of people as batchmates. I don't feel like I'm being left behind even if all my friends are making new ones and I'm just struggling to keep our old friendship alive. This kind of feels like graduation when everyone was crying their eyes out and all I could think of was how ready I was to leave Woodrose. I did high school. I studied and flunked. I procrastinated and worked hard. I made new friends and I lost old ones. I stayed sober and I got drunk. I lived and loved. I loved and lost. I made many mistakes and learned from most of them. I've regretted and and said, carpe fucking diem. I feel like I'm in limbo. I'm not anything. I'm not in college and I'm not in high school. But I don't want to retreat, I just want to keep moving forward. I want something new. Thought if feels like I won't experience anything new since all the stories I've been hearing involve boys, scandals, and infatuation that what anyone older than us would call so high school. I'm not jealous of the new things everyone is going through. I wish everyone luck. But I cant help but think... Crap, I really just cant wait for my escapade to start. |