not knowing
not crying
or neither smiling

a haiku for you
your words softly comfort me
my heartbeat slows down
and you wash away worries

my favorite pair of jeans are under my bed and my left boot is under my desk and my right boot is in my closet... like my room... my mind is a mess. a mess of thoughts filled with uncertainty and worry... will it all be ok?

Remember when you used promise me that everything will fall into place, everything happens for a reason, and most especially, it gets hard before it gets better. now I´ll even be glad to receive a hello for you. funny, because now of all times, I need you to tell me... it´s going to be ok. no matter what. life goes on. like i´m trying my hardest move on without you.................................

because after everything, all these tears aren´t worth it anymore. you aren´t worth it anymore. I cant even recall what made you worth it.

The truth is... you can´t come back. But I´m in denial and I´m trying all kinds of things and methods to bring us back. But I´m never going to your first call anymore.

Even if you´re still mine.